say baby, whats your story?

2008 is in clear sight..
only a few more days.

as this year comes to an end, and a new year begins, i just wanna say im thankful. for everyone i know and I've met. even though im a hardheaded dude, and dont really show emotion in the way others do, i am thankful and grateful for everything. My own stubborness makes it hard for me to display feelings and i'm fully aware of that. with that said, id like to go on the record and say that i truly am thankful, no bullshit, no lie. this is me being honest as i can. anyway...

.. i'm thankful that i met someone i admire. Even though we don't really kickit, and even though theres situations and circumstances that probably won't ever let me be more to you or even progress into being more to you, i just wanna say that i am glad i met you. everything you are is everything i long for. you're so cute, not just physically, but mentally as well. The way you think, the things you say and do, the way your personality radiates out to the world; everything you do makes me like you more and more. You offer the balance in life that a stubborn asshole like myself needs. One that can keep my male ego in check, along with my bad habits and rude gestures, yet at the same time, grow with me, mold myself into a better individual, and be the one to learn with. Although doubt is in my mind that anything could ever be, my stubbornness won't let me just give up. i cant just say "it wouldn't work" and just drop it. that, to me, would be copping out. I'd like to move forward, and write that next page, the one that ends with you and me, but i know very well that life ain't a fairy tale. If nothing ever does arise, just having the pleasure to meet you is a prize within itself, and for that, i am blessed.

Its rare i write like this; actually i NEVER write like this, but girl "you got me there i said it, somebody call the paramedics tell them to hurry up and come through..."