whatever.

im in a predicament.
got my guard back up.
distancing myself abit, because i have to in order to not get hurt.
things have been one sided.
it seems like i can only be by your side when you want me to be.
its all on your terms.
this isnt fair, and i know life isnt that.. but damn.
i don't even get a minute, or a moment of your time anymore.
i feel pushed away, feelin like im secondary.
its some bullshit.
you tend to push the best things you have away, you've said it yourself.
i wanted to be the one that got past the pushing, and had a piece of your heart.
keep on pushin, and eventually ill get pushed to the point where i go the other way, and don't bother to look back.
you said you dont want to hear me say that im fed up, fed up with all that we have.
lately i have no choice than to be that way.
its funny.. i said i love you, because i really do.
i never wanted you to say it back unless you meant it.
but you did say it.
sometimes i question the fact that you said " i love you"
i put those in quotations because i don't know if its true.
if you do love me, then why this treatment.
i've done nothing but been good to you, yet i get treated like shit.
that rubber band may very well be at its very last straw, dried up and ready to break.
you said that with me, at a moments notice, i can up and leave.
the same can be said for you.
you can straight up ignore me just because you feel like it.
you can ignore my calls and my texts.. yet respond to others like its nothing at all.
you say your busy. but then your friends call, and you're out talkin for 3 hours.
i call you, and ask to talk, its turned on me like im being selfish.
like i don't deserve the time.
everythings turned on me.
you finally found my flaw.
my flaw is...

i care about you too much, and im quick to forgive.


your flaw is...
you won't allow yourself to be happy.

until your mind is cleared.. im gone.