so...

shot by silver creekvalley road - 2007 [revisited w/ tiltshift]


seacliff beach - 2006 - stephs bday - [tiltshifted]


ros + pat's wedding - 2006 [tiltshifted]


on location - rowena x christina shoot - fairmont room view [tiltshifted]


mazda meet - vallejo - 2006? [tiltshifted]

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ON WITH THE BLOG!
christmas time is comin up,
actually its pretty much here..
not many more days till then..
ya know, xmas is to spend time with family etc etc.
well I WORK THAT DAY, hahah
but i don't mind it i guess..

but then again.. work sucks now.
some ignorant people make work not so great, so il lbe on the prowl for another job.
so yeah, gotta do what i gotta right?

speaking of which.
the other night, i told you that i don't know what i want..
and im sorry if it seemed like i mighta led you on, or wanted something more.
but i don't, or i realistically dont see anything working.
sure theres attraction, and the whole aura of a relationship,
but honestly, i jsut dont see it working.
both being completely opposite, and having different views on everything,
in conjunction with the mileage inbetween... i guess im sorry.
if im fucked up, my bad, but i didnt have mal-intentions, and if you expected more..
i guess i shoulda said earlier that i don't know what i want...
but damn.. you're far, and i suck at close relationships...
so being far probably won't be good neither.

you're on my level mentally, or past it...
not a kid at all, miss independant, and i respect that..
actually i dig it.. its a turn on, haha.
from the last one, i needed someone older and wiser,
and you've got that... but i think you're lookin too far forward
im turned off by the fact that you're really into me
it kinda kills it when a girl is overly attracted.
im not that special
theres things about you i like and admire etc etc..
and you seem to be open to alotta things.. but
like i said, i don't know what i want..
but i do know what i don't want.
and through testing the waters..
theres things that i may not be too fond of about you.
it is what it is.
as far as this situation
.. i can't be fair with you
and i don't think i'm what you're lookin for.. or need.
i needa get my shit straight still, and i take it a day at a time..

so ill continue that way, one day at a time, one foot then the other..

so i appologize i guess, im sorry i led you on..
it is what it is, and i meant no wrong.
but i did what i think was best.
you can label me what you like, but i didnt mean harm.
merry christmas.

and thats that.